I'm finally beginning to feel like myself again after the viral month of October. I was beginning to lose interest in almost everything except sleeping.

Now that I'm back on top, I've managed to get a handle, or at very least a perceived handle, on work. I finally managed to teach a few decent lessons and also managed to get The Man off my back. We all have The Man in our lives, that incessant obligation that complicates our lives and spoils all our fun. When you're paying - or the corporation that employs you - close to $20,000 USD to educate your child, you're looking for something resembling a quarterly report to the shareholders, especially when you have notions of Yale and Skull and Bones and the White House in mind for your spawn. We had parent-teacher interviews last Tuesday and The Man wasn't nearly as punishing as I thought, confirming my life-long held belief that if you're worried about doing a good job, you're doing a good job. The Man can be just about anything: your boss, your mortgage, your spouse/partner, your stomach or your golf game.

I'm not clear on the genesis of The Man, but I would guess it was the early 1950s. I've been reading a fair amount recently as I didn't have energy for much else. I've followed my tendency for threads, threads that tie and bind, or either get knotted up when you pull them or unravel the fabric of existence. I'm self-schooling myself in American post-modern literature. It was the logical stop after ready quest and odyssey for four years. Semiotics is what I think I'm talking about, symbols that point to things, that allow us to name things. Somewhere in a pile of gmail is the name of a text book I need to read on the subject. My understanding is this, if semiotics applies to questing, then the "The Hero's Journey" (I'm almost embarrassed to utter the phrase) points to or suggests answers, a goal or an outcome. Post-modernism points to another question and things defy labels. This is confusing. In 2004, I thought I knew where I was headed and all I encountered just affirmed that feeling. Now, I know that I'm still headed in the same direction, but everything points away from the appointed journey, the excluded middle. Like an Escher painting, the background implies what is in the foreground. My first clue that I had entered this phase of life was The Crying of Lot 49 and now I think I've found the font of that work, Invisible Man, by Ralph Ellison. It's a groovy little book and I highly recommend it. Anyhow, I'm starting to understand the point of Finnegan's Wake, though I make no claims to understand it...yet.

Realizing that it would be criminal to sequester myself to my apartment on weekends for the next two years. I have a duty to you, my reader, to get out and explore this wacky place. On Sunday, I finally ventured forth to Hösök Tere or Heroes Square to grab a coffee and walk around the city park, reconnoiter the thermal baths and the museums that await. I really wanted to take my camera, but I forgot. I realize I need some non-work related ritual in my life, so I will head back to the coffee shop on Sunday and take some photos this time. I will resurrect this travel blog, I will win you all back.

With the internet providing all the information we need through a little, tiny fiber-optic cable, I don't really see the point in links, except for this one. Who the hell thought to check whether Scotch tape emitted X-rays? I can see some senior scientist at 3M, hunkered down in a dark room on Christmas Eve, stripping off great lengths of the new-fangled adhesive and making a note to investigate the sparks after he finished wrapping his wife's brand new vacuum cleaner. Has anyone ever tried stripping off tape in a pitch black room? Well, it gives off enough radiation to X-ray your hand!!! Fear not: the air prevents most of the photons from reaching your hand. Still, this is a damn strange phenomenon. Next, I suppose dental floss will be found to fuse hydrogen atoms.

There I stop. I need to ease myself back into this. I'm still a little at odds with writing. Try wrapping this years gifts in the dark but wear a lead bib.

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